Thursday, August 20, 2009
This Saturday's Yiling's 18 birthday party. Marcus' gona be there. Im so gona regret this. But who cares about him. Im gona just enjoy myself and keep myself occupied with my other friends. Its E316 reunion. Even though Micah and Meleah arent here, I believe they're in each of our hearts. So they'll be there mentally and soul-ley.
Just realized, family stuff's getting from bad to worse. Brother's getting more stubborn, doesnt listen at all. All he knows is how to cry. Stupid cousin, (at least finally stopped shitting in his pants. HE'S PRIMARY 2!) keeps shouting at him. Sister just sits there, "watching the show". Mom and Dad's hardly home. I cant be bothered with them. I cant stand the noise. Why do others think I have a good life? Mom and Dad dont even know what I truly want. All they care about is my studies and coming home early. I want to go for water baptism. I want to help out more in church. I want normal parents, not weird ones like they alrey are. I want Daddy to stop being a coward, he's always complaining to Mommy saying I come home too late and I shoudnt go to MY CHURCH. Mommy refers this to scolding. Why cant he just stop being a COWARD and just talk to me? Is it that hard to communicate with me? Im starting to hate you both more. Mommy, one day you might even be like Daddy, just an atm machine. Im okay with asking Daddy for money, but I feel so horrible when I ask it from Mommy. I still want my meowmeows back. I miss them so much. I want to know why we spend so much on things that we dont really need? If They dont want the money, they can always DONATE it to me. I want a few stuffs. I want them to keep their promises. Mostly. I want church most. Church is my everything.
Math became a free period today. 55 minutes of freedom and funfunfun! Plus not having Mrs Lopez and Mdm Xie in class during homeroon adds another 55 minutes. Quality time with classmates. Good. Okay, i've finally decided to go ahead with WaterBaptism. I dont care. I want to. I cried over it.(DARWIN KNOWS! !!!!) Yea, I can cry over church stuff, which shows how much it means to me. Looking forward. BE OPTIMISTIC!
Math became a free period today. 55 minutes of freedom and funfunfun! Plus not having Mrs Lopez and Mdm Xie in class during homeroon adds another 55 minutes. Quality time with classmates. Good. Okay, i've finally decided to go ahead with WaterBaptism. I dont care. I want to. I cried over it.(DARWIN KNOWS! !!!!) Yea, I can cry over church stuff, which shows how much it means to me. Looking forward. BE OPTIMISTIC!
WATER BAPTISM!
Imgoingforit.Iwantit.Nostopping.
