On Saturday,
our CG had BBQ
after cell at Lucas'.
Micah, Meleah and swee went to swim...
I was with them..
So I got a little wet.
The lifeguard scolded us for
nt being in proper attire.
So Micah wore her BIKINI(o_o)
and meleah wore her sports bra..
O_O
Then, I joined Meleah.
I was wearin bra oso?!
So freaky can....
Okay. yea.
My shirt was soaked.
Yeah.
Everyone saw me.
Like totally wet...
Ah!
Marcus oso okay.
OMG!
Mostly because my shirt was sticking
to my skin and everything
could be seen because....
My shirt was some sorta
abit translusent....
Yeah.
When I heard someone
ask where yiling was,
I realized she was gone.
So I asked too.
Come on, Im nt a kaypo.
She is one of my good friends in CG.
Or should I say WAS?
Valerie told me she was behind
the bushes, by the vending machine.
I went ahead to look for her,
while the rest of them tried their
bests to stop me from going.
But I persisted.
I found her banging her head on the wall.
So yeah.
I was mad at her for doing tt.
I scolded her for nt answering my
calls and for hurting herself.
Fuck.
Then I stormed off.
Angry.
I was like going to the toilet
to wash my face.
PeiShan came after me.
When I went out, I wanted to keep my
phone in my bag and go somewhere
at the playground.
Then Marcus tried to stop me also.
But I totally ignored whatever anyone said.
Then I was nearing the playground and carpark.
And Peishan came to talk to me.
I cant believe I cried?
I think Zach and Kelvin oso saw can.
Like OMG can.
Only Marcus saw me like really cry before.
Oh.My.God.
On sunday.
I had a big fight with Yiling again.
I totally ignored her until she came and talk to me.
She wanted to talk to me.
So yeah.
Then I sorta made things abit clear
to her that I didnt want her to hurt herself.

So what if im also hurting myself?!

I do it for fun and pleasure.

You are hitting your head against the wall.

I need you to tell me everything!
So yeah.
I think many others saw our quarrel too.
We both almost cried.
I was practically shouting.
I first shouted at her on saturday.
This was the second time.
WOW.
You think it feels nice is it?
HUH?
You think I like shouting at you is it?!
You bitch!
I dont want to talk to you!
GO AWAY!